assessment result was out ytd and unfortunately i've a gpa below 2.0 again. its been like this for 3 sems in a row.
always it intrigues me why do i manage to obtain such grades, times when i work really hard & times when effort was not even considered.
it saddens me, how it really puzzles me so much.
i wonder on thoughts am i that weak? am i that inferior?
or am i really that below average that i will never rule out the possibility achieving good grades at least once?
maybe i had mixed up the definition of working really hard to working extremely hard.
still it often comes to a point that at the end oof the day, average & below average is what i get.
i wish someone will be there to guide me and tell me what the fuck is wrong.
my ideas never once pleased the lecturers nor ppl.
im succumbing to failure, finally acknowledging to the fact im indeed a pathetic piece of shit that shall never strive for excellence.